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Wayne Hindson continues his chat with Rebecca about her new EP “Dawn” & the difficult journey that her & her husband went through when conceiving their second child.
Can you take us through your pregnancy journey?
Well, we were a couple years into married life and had just really sense that this was the next season or kind of phase in our journey and our life together, my husband and I. And so thank the Lord we fell pregnant actually quite quick with our daughter. And I just I was so exceedingly thankful because I did get a later start in, you know, in that part of my life. And it’s not a given
that that’s even going to happen or happen quickly. So I’m very, very thankful. And I’m the oldest of seven children. And so I felt like I’d kind of been second mum already to all my siblings.
So I think I went into parenting pretty confident about, oh, you know, I’ve just got to read the right book, it’s going to be pretty second nature. And I think when Gemma was born, which was absolute delight for my husband, I mean, just over the moon, thrilled. There was so amidst the delight and the joy and the honour of being a mum, there was definitely this pretty steep learning curve and pretty quick realisation that just because you read the books or even been the oldest child doesn’t mean that it’s going to come easily. So there’s just so many choices in parenting, so many different ways that you could go and different things that you can do. And you’re kind of meant to be a student of your child, really, and their specific needs. It’s definitely been something that I’ve loved every minute of. But then also it’s turned me to God for wisdom in a different way in my life and also really helps me to surrender our kids to God and recognise that they’re His and just asking Him for what we need to parent well.
What was one thing you learnt about yourself as a mum?
Probably pride. I was already conscious of my pride, but more in life, just in the parenting sense. I think there was times where she’d be playing up a little bit. And I just feel like such a reflection on me. You know, like, ah. Like it’s a showing me up as a parent. And it was humbling. That’s what it was. It was more just like parenting and certain times with her. And she’s reasonably strong. It’s just there was this moment of
like, “Okay, yeah, this is a little humbling because it’s just not the easiest”. And I really need to know how Cubbie and I can navigate this well. And yeah, she’s just got this beautiful little face at six years old and softened so much and really come through those years of being a bit more trying, which were like age two and three. So yeah, I think that’s what I would say. I just you know, you can’t be like your own selfishness and humanity and pride. I think sometimes with kids in it. And it’s humbling. It’s good.
It’s been about a decade since you have releases new music. Were you ever concerned that people may not resonate with your new music?
I think there’s a certain vulnerability. Is it going to be something that’s actually connecting? I think there’s that vulnerability because it’s like when you’re releasing songs, especially a whole album, it’s like birthing a baby in a way, it’s like presenting a part of you to the world. And in some ways, for critic in a way, you know, people either connect with that and admire your baby/ your music or they don’t. So I think it’s that vulnerability that just hits every now and again. But for the most part, I knew I was so called to this album and God had done such a huge work of, out of the Blue without me even looking at it, like wanting it or even like looking for it. He’s call me back to music so radically, that in those moments of vulnerability, I could come back to know this guy’s idea. He did this work and he has got a purpose here. And so we just have to see. My part is just to be faithful to creating what I feel He’s called me to create and being true to that mission and then leave the rest to him. It is easier said than done sometimes. But for the most part, I just rested in that in that sense of calling.
Let’s talk about the song ‘Middle of the Fire’. Can you journey with us the heart behind this song?
So last year I was actually in Redding. Just been there just a couple of times. Heritage Music, which is kind of an extra arm of Bessel Music Ministry outside of their church. And so I was thankful that they were open to really, you know, encoding me in my journey, you know, with music and supporting me.
Josh is a wonderful man and has an incredible heart for God and for ministry and for worship. And we were writing a song, Middle of the Fire. It just came kind of pretty organically. And little did we know that this year, 2020 was going to be such a challenging year for all of us, really. And just so you know, it’s such a curveball that none of us could have anticipated. But it just says “In the middle of the fire, I will talk to your father in the middle of a fire. You are standing with us in the midst of my darkest hour. Holy Spirit, come. Show your power in the middle of the fire. You are faithful, Jesus”.
And it’s a worship song, kind of honouring His faithfulness and also reminding us that He’s faithful and can be trusted. So very thankful that Josh guested on that song. And I’m excited to see the impact of that.
Josh is a wonderful man and has an incredible heart for God and for ministry and for worship. And we were writing a song, Middle of the Fire. It just came kind of pretty organically. And little did we know that this year, 2020 was going to be such a challenging year for all of us, really. And just so you know, it’s such a curveball that none of us could have anticipated. But it just says “In the middle of the fire, I will talk to your father in the middle of a fire. You are standing with us in the midst of my darkest hour. Holy Spirit, come. Show your power in the middle of the fire. You are faithful, Jesus”.
And it’s a worship song, kind of honouring His faithfulness and also reminding us that He’s faithful and can be trusted. So very thankful that Josh guested on that song. And I’m excited to see the impact of that.
A big thanks to Rebecca for taking the time to chat with us. God bless!
